I knew this was coming. I knew that this is where we were headed. I knew that it would come to this eventually.
So why am I panicking? So he sent me a text saying that he was filing separation paperwork this week or next. I mean, I have my lawyers appointment for Thursday, so I can beat him to the punch.
So why am I panicking?
Maybe because he has been calling all the shots? Maybe because I’m afraid that the divorce won’t go my way?
Maybe because a teeny, tiny part of myself was hoping he’d call the whole thing off?
I don’t know. What I do know is that the ambien will be welcome tonight. I think I’m really gonna need it.